3 February 2012, 5:37 pm
I feel extremely self conscious and I'm in my mid-teens and when ever I tell someone they just say "Oh its okay, every teenager feels that way." But I'm so tired of hearing that and I want a solution. Its been bothering me for weeks and its gotten to the point where sometimes i can't look people in the eyes because I dont want them to see my whole face. Its not like I've been called ugly all my life or been teased. That has actually rarely ever happened. I have NO reason to feel this way, I have clear skin, natural blond hair, full lips, high cheek bones, and I;m tall. When I go down the list I feel like I have nice features but then I look in the mirror and I see this ugly thing staring back at me. Do I have some sort of distorted view. I can point out every flaw in myself and when I show my friends they say, "what are you talking about?" Then i talk to my mom and she says, "Oh you are so beautiful!" But I don't believe her. I have even gotten people stop me in stores or restaurants to tell me that i am pretty. But in my mind I am ugly and it makes me feel low and worthless. And I know that "personality is whats important," and I surely look for personality in another person waayyy more than looks but when it comes to me...i am more judgmental about myself. I look at famous people like Adriana Lima and Scarlett Johansson and wish I look like them. I know they have professional makeup artists and photoshop but still they are gorgeous. I also get mad at myself for feeling this way because this is not who I want to be at all. I want to feel confident about who i AM but with this feeling i cannot. I need a permanent solution to get rid of this forever because its starting to affect my daily life and school. I want to feel beautiful inside and out and I know it will take some work but I need to stop this now. And please no cliche answers like "Personality is what matters! or Be happy with your self." I need a real solution that will work. P.S i just moved from Europe with my family to live in America and it all started when I got here...... Read More »
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